I understand death is a part of life. I have a really hard time accepting it. I lost my godmother recently. She was a huge part of my life. She couldn't have children of her own so I saw myself as the daughter she never had. She was beautiful, smart, caring, and loving. She taught me a lot and always gave excellent advice. I am very blessed to have had her in my life. She help mold me into a who I am. She lived life to the fullest and always had a smile on her face no matter what came her way.
I am super close to my family and I hate the fact that I am literally across the country from them. I understand that its a side effect of being "married to the military" but it causes me to spend a lot of money to see my family. I don't want to sound like I'm complaining but it just sucks either way. At least my last memory of when I saw her was in November. I spent a day with her and my mother. We drove around Florida. We laughed and had a great time. We went to the beach and ate a bunch of good food. That's how I want to remember her through all of the good times. I keep beating myself up because I was so focused on working in order to make money to survive. If I could've seen into the future I wouldn't have gone to Animazement, I would've spent that time going home to see her. I keep blaming myself for it. God had other plans.
I know she's with family now. With her mother and father, and my grandparents. I know she's not suffering or in pain. I can't wrap it around my head that I will not physically see her anymore. When I go to her house she won't be there, I won't hear her laughing, or singing, or have her embrace me with open arms. That's what I will miss the most. And I'm worried about my uncle. She loved him more than words can say. She was his rock and he's lost without her. Matt's not taking this loss so well. She touched a lot of peoples' lives. She loved unconditionally. I hope to follow in her footsteps and be the glue that brings people together. I love you Aunt Yvette, please continue to watch over me as you always have <3